You pushed me away
Friday, 16 September 2011 @ 06:26
Hi Awak. You pushed me away too far of this time. and i hope you are doing fine now. I just wanted to say last long Best wishes and i miss you alot. Loving you always, xx
Happy Suppose to be 1 year 11 Months
Friday, 2 September 2011 @ 20:21
Hi Sayang. I heard you are having a fever. Sigh. please get well soon. Drink lots of water. I cant tell you what to do since you pushed me too far away the other time </3 Nonetheless, get well soon my favourite boy <3 xoxo for you :'> Anyway, its the 3rd. Well, it was suppose to be special. Happy 1 year 11 months sayang. </3, wah next month dah 2 years. How time flies :'> Sigh. I miss you so much,wan. so much :'( i miss your texts and everything. I simply miss you and i hope one day, you will return. I have never stopped praying for you,wan. Never. Do come back,some day, cause i know i'll be waiting for you for a lifetime </3 :'> Loving you always.
xoxo, Nur Adriana
Selamat hari raya :')
Sunday, 28 August 2011 @ 23:27
Sealmat Hari Raya,sayang <3
Hello Sayang. Selamat Hari Raya to you. Its unfortunate that we wont be celebrating our raya together this year </3 Its okay, i'll look through our old raya photos alright? Selamat hari raya to you ,baby. I know i made alot of mistakes to you. I hope you will forgive me, cause I forgave you a long time ago. Have a fruitful Hari Raya with your family, friends and your girlfriend okay my dear? <3 :'> I miss Lisha & Mira :'> I hope they are doing fine and i hope you are doing fine too. Confirm makan banyak kan you. Hehehe, i know <3 Selamat Hari Raya sayang <3 I love you so much. And if we are ever meant for each other, i promise you i'll let you read this blog, where i communicate with you, emotionally. I love you,baby alot.
Amazing
It's amazing how i can on days without you. It's amazing how i tried so hard not to fall apart. it's amazing how i still on to the memories when you let it all go. It's amazing how you forget me while im still here, wishing for you. It's heartbreaking for me to celebrate Ramadhan and raya without you. Sigh, but what to do right? </3 I'll just look through the raya pictures last year and smile. im glad it happen though</3 It's also amazing how you leave me hanging. It's amazing how far you lead me on and left me like that. Nonetheless, i wish you all the best yet again. Still loving you with the broken pieces i have </3 Good night Mohamad Reedduwan. This is the only place where i can connect to you, talk to you, feel your presence and everything. Sigh. Good night Mohamad Reedduwan. I love you, so much. Please have a good rest alright? <3 i hope to see you in my dreams tonight </3
What if I date a Chinese?
Saturday, 27 August 2011 @ 20:42
I have been busy lately and I got not time to switch on my computer. Sigh. I'm using ny itouch now. Life has been going well. Alhamdulillah. I'm proud of myself in a way or another. Yes. I have not talked to him for such a long time and I'm planning not to,maybe for the reat of my life. Will see how it goes. So yeah, I heard he is finally with that girl. Well, that's good right? So yeah, last long and best wishes. See ya around I guess? Okay, anyways, I met quite a number of new people and they are all so nice:3 what if I dated a Chinese? :O
turn back time
Friday, 12 August 2011 @ 06:08
Oh, I just noticed the date is 3 August. Oh.K. I just wished I could turn back time to when it was me and you. But, no I cant do that. I dont care if we are not together or whatsoever. But the way you treat me, its unacceptable alright. I got my limits too. You treat me like garbage, like some old toy. No, thats not the right way. And thanks to your behavior, look what happened to us now? Instead of being friends or whatsoever, Im angry at you for everything. Hatred. But it decreases now. I just hope that one day, you will realise all your wrong doings, and not to worry, i keep telling people I wont accept you or anything. but the truth is, i will accept you cause I am strong enough to accept your mistake. I am strong enough to accept that people make mistake and they deserve the second chance. It does not matter how broken I am or whatsoever. What matters is you make the effort to change. And, im proud of that. Alright enough about you.
Moving on, there's this guy. Im not sure about my feelings for him. I dont love him like really love. I just like/admire him. And no, im not going to break his heart. I cant accept you,im still healing. You, yes you my dear boy, you deserve someone way better than me. I am aware that you waited for me how many years, since primary school right. I really appreciate that. but, i cant afford to break your heart. I cant afford to that. You are a nice boy. And i feel so blessed to be around you. But now, now its not the right time for us. Perhaps in the future. Lets remain this way alright? You will forever be my cute boy. <3
Next, you, i think you should notice that I am avoiding you right? I know you can,i feel the distance between us growing apart each day. I got my reasons for doing this. You dont know how much i miss hanging out with you guys, but hey, i got to do this alright. The reason why I am avoiding you is because I do not want to break your heart any longer. I do not want to give you hopes or anything. i do not want you to lose hope in love because of me. you are a great person and you deserve someone way better to than me. You deserve to be love by a girl who will accept you for who you are. You are a great guy, i swear you are. And any girl to have you must be really thankful. Lets just be friends alright,nothing more and nothing less? I'll text you real soon, to catch up with this and close the gaps between us. And I, i will explain everything to you. I promise. And no, i have never forgotten you guys. Infact, i miss you guys alot. Im sorry for breaking your heart. Maybe I am a heart breaker. But , there is nothing i can do about that. Im really sorry. I hope you understand. once again, you are really awesome and I do not want to lose a buddy like you <3
xoxo, Nur Adriana
You should just die
Wednesday, 10 August 2011 @ 00:23
I HATE YOU ALRIGHT. THIS IS NOT EVEN FAIR TO ME. I DIDINT EVEN CONTACT YOU . AND YOU ARE BLAMING ME FOR EVERYTHING. RIGHT, YOU SHOULD JUST DIE LAH PLEASE. FUCK YOU, I HATE YOU SO DAMN FUCKING MUCH. FUCK YOU
SINCERELY, ME.
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